The third rule of Tuesday Girls to the Rescue is if someone says stop, goes limp, taps out, the fight is over.
A couple of weeks ago, I skipped our regular meeting. This may seem counter to everything that I have been telling you through these little blog posts.
I had to stop, go limp and tap out. I drew myself off of the mat and headed to the locker room where I just sat. Too many questions and not enough answers. I will admit I was a little paralyzed. It was one of those days where you know that getting up and moving will help you. You know that watching countless episodes of court TV and never getting dressed past a sweatshirt over your p.j.’s will not help you.
I couldn’t do it. I turned off my brain and went all comatose on the world.
My girls texted me to see where I was and I decided I wasn’t budging. That Tuesday was not a day for rescue. It was a day of self pity.
Really. I know. You’re probably thinking who is this girl!?
It’s me. Tashmica. On a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.
I told them I needed some time to think. Translation? I needed a day to not think, not process and not talk about solutions. Their collective reaction?
Please call if u need to talk anything through or if we can kidnap you again tonight?
The last time I had a day like this, their collective response was a flower delivery and a sweet card.
When you surround yourself with Salt of the Earth friends they gently give you space. They allow you your court TV days. They allow you days of locker room self pity. Your days of purposeful immobility are recognized as neccessary for healing.
They do not allow you to feel like you are alone. They reach out with a rope, a kind word a gentle reminder that they are waiting in the wings for your big come back.
Can you honestly blame me for a Rocky reference with all of the fight lingo in this post. Seriously? :)
So today is a new day. I am dressed all the way down to my shoes. I have just started my dream job and today I will be taking my lunch break with the fantastic Tuesday Girls to the Rescue. My frame is a little bent and not quite what it was a couple months ago but I’m working on it….and I suppose they are helping me strengthen it.